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Friday, December 02, 2005
meaningless... ?
I decided not to go to watch the movie with cheryl and gals olreadi.. the reason is becoz there is still something against me going.. haiz.. if i really go, i will feel very left out as... she is also going. Surely there will be some misunderstandings again.. i noe tt cheryl is worried about our frenship. She is upset too.. but i am so sorry. i couldn bring myself to worry about it anymore. It has make my life so miserable. I think this frenship will just have to come to a stop. i really cannot continue it anymore. if we really continue, both parties will not feel good at all. i really have to stop this. Since we are not meeting anymore, i guess this might be a good time for both of us to calm down and think carefully. Maybe by the time we meet again to visit the new olgc school, we might have cleared all misunderstandings. Anyway, u gals can have a good time watching the movie.
3:31 PM
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
=( ?
I am so upset.. my parents still doesnt allows me to go out alone! I am already going to be a secondary student! Its very unfair! Cheryl today went to vivienne's house with some other ppl.. they went to swim at vivienne's house! cheryl asked me whether i wanted to go.i asked my parents and as usual ,give me lots of reasons! i really very fed up.. they say wat today will rain all this. But there isn a drop of rain anywhere now! then when i ask them abt going to watch the movie chicken little with cheryl and frenz, they also say see first.. then when i asked them further, they will say : "u very guo fen leh! first ask for swimming, then movie! i reallly cannot stand toking to u!"
see? but i did not go for both! so now who is the one who is very guo fen? i think i should be the one cannot stand toking to them! i really very irritated! i cant even go myself.. then they say wat u cannot expect me to go swimming with u rite... nobody ask them to follow me! i just want to go myself! why cannot! i go myself also got problem meh.. i learning to be independent! why are they depriving me of my freedom!? then when i tell them i just want to be independent, wat do they say? " you are not as strong as ur sis, if anything happen ,she can kick or box wateva.. then u ? will onli noe how to scream.." its not true wat.. i also can kick..blah blah... its unfair! i duno whether to hate them or wat.. i cannot hate them! they give birth to me.. and feed me ,provide a lot of things to me.. yet are so strict with me! I really cannot stand ! WHY WHY? SEC ONE NEXT YR! not next yr! its less than 5 weeks! why cant i still go out myself! with my frenz! i mean its safe..why why?! ahh.. i would rather they not give birth to me than depriving me of my freedom! i really cant stand it!!!grahz..!!!!!
2:57 PM
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
piglets! ?
I found lots of piglets photos this few days! yay! So happy.. last time i got search for some, but they always show me lots of.. erm... weird things. now i finally find some proper ones.
11:51 AM
Sunday, November 27, 2005
boo hoo.. ?
Everybody is telling me i got very slim chances of getting into cedar. haiz.. i noe cedar is a gd sch and many wants to go in. But.. i just scored 5 marks lower .. why cant i just get 5 marks more?! my stupid science pulled me down very badly. It is the onli subject scored B. haiz.. i am very disappointed with myself. a stupid girl. 5 marks! this 5 marks has cause a lot of trouble for me. haiz.. maybe i am just meant to go other sch.. not fated to go there.. or maybe i am just not clever. Even if cedar points decrease. there is still many out there who wants to go! and they also scored much higher than me. haiz.. very disappointed. my dreams have come true.. i dreamt tt i keep mssing the Cut off point for cedar. and now it reali come true. haiz... i feel so helpless.
3:56 PM
Sleepy ?
Haiz.. after packing up my study room i felt very very tired. i have so much to do. my study room got so much of my p3 to 6 bks and worksheets. i should have listen to my sis , not keep so much rubbish! and its now time to suffer..haiz.. i cleared most already.. and i left a little portion which i intend to do tml. coz now very late le. midnite! haiz.. so tired. 1.14 am.. my eyes are getting heavier.. haiz... i still very scared tt my appeal to go into cedar mite not.. =( haiz.. let nature take its course.. maybe i can get in.. maybe not.. haiz.. going to slp le.. nitez
1:10 AM
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